I also want to fly and glide with confidence and I love that vision of the wind blowing in my hair. Unfortunately, that vision gets interrupted by that wind-blown hair getting caught in my lipstick and then my teeth.
Okay, okay. I really am not that cynical but self-confidence is a thought-provoking concept that I continue to grapple with. I have pondered this self-confidence phenomenon for years. Personally, I would like to change the definition to reflect more accurately the struggle to achieve it, maintain it and/or to deal with it when we lose it again, definition, if that’s even possible.
If you’re anything like me (and I know you’re out there) you struggle with your self-confidence on a continual basis. One day I feel confident, strong – I can take on the world! The next day, week or month, I want to crawl under the covers and stay there. I have come to recognize my struggle with what I call the “SC factor” as steps, steps that lead up a steep hill. At the top of that hill is one of my lofty goals (I have many), a goal that I know I can achieve – or so I believe. Then something and it can be a small something, will knock me right back down those steps. I do ultimately pick myself up again; dust myself off, but not without leaving some remnant of dust behind, some guilt, some self-loathing or at times, bewilderment. My greatest struggle is that even when I am feeling confident and climb another step looking very self-confident to the world, there is always a little nagging voice telling me not to screw things up. If the world had a looking glass into my soul at these moments you would have seen me running down those stairs.
That said, the question Lana asks above “So, what about you—who would you be?” I would be that women, forever standing proud and tall on top of that hill with the wind blowing thru my hair, not getting caught in my teeth.
Any suggestions on how we can stay on top of that Self-Confidence hill?
